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Name: James
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fort Worth
Birthday: 8/9/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Im a fairly simple person. Enjoy the soothing sounds of Jazz, Blues, most Rock, like reading, TV (BBC channels, IFC, and Comedy Central are the norm), I absolutely LOVE Kung-Fu and foreign martial arts films, and some other stuffz. (yes, there is a "z" after the word stuff. For some reason this is how I have always said that word, and I ain't gonna change it!)
Expertise: Jobs and Aspirations: Currently working part-time for Parsons Electric Service, and aspiring to become an Architect/Director of Projects, or whatever other possible future career comes to mind.
Jobs been fired from: Fort Worth Trap and Skeet (grew out of running score sheets, my ambition demands so much more), and RED27 (Picking on and messing with customers.)
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Ishiwadede
Yahoo:  Ishiwadede1001
Member Since:
11/29/2004
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| Wow...this is old. Hehe. Go to www.myspace.com/The_Ishi, if anyone has even seen this thing....
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| So, my grandfather died monday. David Luttrell. Strong, hardworking, devouted christian, and all around cool guy. You know those few select people who can look anything, any bad situation, right at its core, shrug, and say "meh"? He was one of those. Or atleast he managed to give off that vibe. He wasn't the kind of family you see once a year or who lives 3 states away. More like 13 minutes. We saw him atleast a few times a month, and toward the end while the Black was eating him every day as he sunk into himself. Watching someone die isn't enjoyable, but watching the people around them crumble in there own ways might be even worse. I detach. I cease to feel. It's how I respond, I cant handle it any other way, but as a result of this attitude I get stuck on the outside. I can't mourn with my family or share in there grieving because I don't know how to relate. Im left standing ackwardly in the corner twiddling my thumbs while EVERYONE else breaks down. I dont think this really makes me stronger in any way. On the contrary, it makes me feel like I'm missing a few pieces. Like I'm defective emotionally. I guess in the end people handle things differently, but it's wierd playing the same role in the family as the hospice nurse, or later, the funeral home director. Standing on the sidelines watching. I dont know.
Anyway I went to Steven's yesturday and was introduced to the Fantabulous world of the transexual comedian Eddy Izard (I hope I got that right), and the efficient, oddly humorous doctor House, as well as the first look into the Shadowlands, home of the Wraiths, which a group of us will be attempting to experience sometime in the future. | | |
| Ever have those moments when nothing seems right? I dont mean necessarily that things are going bad, just like when you have one of those "zen" moments things aren't necessarily good. I just mean that it seems you walk through an invisible cloud that just sends some bad vibrations, scrambles up your head a bit, spins your sails around. Anyway, just had one of those, and I must say, I profer the focus the zen moments give me. Heh. Zen. I'm sure the word got twisted somewhere down the path from its Creator. Hell, odds are I'm using it wrong even by today's standards, but for me, its a word that takes on different forms for different people. One's zen might be reading a mystery novel while another's might be causing destruction at the local crash derby. A refreshing, complicated game of chess or the momentary thrill of being caught in a street brawl. Lately I've been looking around at those that seem to be intently focused on what there doing, seem to have it all together, be able to cope knowing that there zen waits for them on the bookshelf, or in that last cigarette. I wish like hell we could bottle the damn thing, cause I've been running on E for quite some time. I need to get me a bottle of that Zen soon......
(God, I just read over that. I can see the dumb-ass comments now. "I got your bottle of zen James, they just call it Crown Royal, Hur Hur Hur....") | | |
| Been a while since my last entry. Lets see...new developments....hmm...I've gotten the Firefly Box Set (Best show ever!) and a crossbow (not sure if it was exactly a "legal" transaction. Bought it from an old marine off the back of an open truck, if you catch my drift. If you dont know me, I collect these kinda things.) Anyhow I got the Box Set like, 3 days ago and watched all 12 or so hours in the past 3 days. (Skipped out on homework yesturday, but I think I had my priorities set in the right direction) Anyway, heres the scoop. You have to respect this movie coming out, "Serenity". For better or for worse, any director would have to work hard as hell to get ANY television show put to motion picture, let alone a cancelled one. Anyone who shows that much dedication to his art must love it just as much as the greatly amassed fanbase does. So, hats off to ya Joss Whedon. Anyone who doesnt have a clue what I'm talking about, go buy/rent/borrow this box set, than see the movie. You wont regret it. Six Weeks Tests!!!! Blah!!! And it just so happens that almost ALL MY AP TEACHERS have decided to postpone there tests until friday, so it's not "so hard on us." Oh well. Anyway, im off to shoot some arrows into my wall. (Whoa.....just read that last part. I'm WAY to easily amused........) | | |
| These are the times when people should be banning together to try and help one another. I can understand chaos and confusion at the places devestated by the hurricane, thats to be expected, but what of people trying to help? Dont get me wrong, there are good people out there truely trying to make a difference, but I believe the biggest help of all SHOULD BE FROM THE GOVERNMENT. This help isnt accomplished by REFUSING TO ASK FOR FOREIGN ASSISTANCE. Or, UNACCEPTIBLY SLOW ACTION TOWARD THE SITUATION. Dont get me wrong, I'm not sure I could do a better job, but I also know that I SHOULDNT EVEN HAVE TO CONSIDER IF I COULD OR NOT, THE ANSWER SHOULD BE NO, because WE SHOULD HAVE BEEN USING ALL OUR RESOURCES FROM THE BEGINNING. Seeing any political leaders taking time to talk about the steps their taking on televison only shows me that there not working on the situation at that very moment, as they should. Everyones to busy trying to cover there asses and point the finger. Instead of reaching out for foreign aid, our president states firmly his confidence that we can handle the situation without help. Instead of sending troops armed with food, medical supplies, and clean water, our governors send troops armed with guns to stop any of the looters, who arent the immediate problem. Instead of taking the time to rally people to donate or help in anyway they can, civil leaders take time to play the race card yet again. Talk, talk, talk. I HATE talk............ | | |
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